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09 February 2006 @ 01:52 am
Hey, I started another LJ account. My user name is mommamichelle. Add me to your friend's list and I'll add you right back. The other blog was a pain in the ass because it wasn't as user friendly as LJ.
23 December 2005 @ 09:05 am
My new blog.
Current Mood: tiredtired
08 November 2005 @ 04:54 pm
Max is in our room screaming for me to come and get him but I had to sneak downstairs to make this post right at this very moment. Because… right at this very moment exactly one year ago… I started having labor contractions. Hal and I arrived at the birthing home right now for our last prenatal exam, one year ago. It is coming nearer to the last time I will ever be able to say “this time last year I was pregnant.” I’ve been emotional all day today thinking about this day last year. My baby is almost one year old…
Current Mood: sadsad
06 November 2005 @ 10:01 am
This morning something hit me like a ton of bricks. Hal will never be the type of student that I want him to be. I have to just accept that he procrastinates until the very last days and then stressfully hermits in front of the computer. This has been the source of many arguments since the birth of our son because my “time off” is directly affected by his time management (or lack there-of).

He is in crunch mode right now and pretty much warned me that the month of November is going to be a hard month. Meaning… I’m not going to see him very much when he gets home from work or on his days off. It’s not that his professors decided to assign work due in November on the last day of October – it’s that EVERYTHING his professor assigned at the beginning of the class semester is due at the end of November, and Hal just started working on the core of all of that. I know this is hard for him, too. He absolutely hates how he procrastinates… but, unlike me, he accepted it as part of his hard wiring long ago.

How it affects me…

In order for me to “take a break” from my job as mama, I always need someone to fill in for me. Otherwise, baby Max is right at my heels needing some kind of attention. I remind Hal of this often because unlike his experience with work and personal time, I can’t just change web pages when I want to check my e-mail or close the door when I need peace and privacy – I need an extra set of hands to do these things. Or, I have to do these things with my eyes and attention directed at Max – which means no privacy and very little peace and quiet. When Hal is home I have a little more freedom to move around at will. I can check my e-mail, blog, write in my journal, use the bathroom, and shower – all without Max in tow. When Hal goes into crunch mode, it puts a great deal of stress on me. If I’m on the computer when he’s home, he’s often hovering and rushing me to get off. He has little patience towards my needs and as a result, spends less time with Max. And, as a result of that… Hal feels even more stress because he loves hanging with Max and me.

I can not wait for his schooling to be over with (just two more semesters - woo hoo!). But then, it’s my turn and we’ll see if I manage my time any better.
Current Mood: rushedrushed
05 November 2005 @ 10:38 am
About a month ago Liz told me she wanted to make something for Max in honor of his first birthday. She’s incredibly crafty and I so very much dig this about her. However, hehe, my excitement didn’t prevent me from teasing her in honor of Ralphie Parker’s aunt on, “A Christmas Story”. I said to her, “You know Liz - you watch, you’re going to be THAT aunt who makes Max all the corny stuff for the holidays. He’s totally going to hate your gifts as we are cooing over how cute he looks in them!” She scoffed (and laughed) and was like, “No way! I’m gonna be the cooool aunt – that’s you MIL who will torture him with dorky clothes.” Hm.

Yesterday we were hunting for some dressy clothes for me to wear to an upcoming super fancy wedding and Liz comes tearing excitedly around the corner – pushing Max in the stroller – with a big happy-silly grin on her face. She held this up with great enthusiasm:

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03 November 2005 @ 10:10 pm
Max knows where his nose, mouth, ears, and belly button is. He points to them with smiles on his sweet face.

Tonight when I said, “Time to go nite-nite” he looked at me all excited and ran into our bedroom! When I turned the corner he was climbing into our bed! Just too sweet. I forgot to put the dog food/water out so left to do that and he followed me. When I turned around and said, “get in there, time to go nite-nite” he again got excited and ran back into the bedroom. It is just so amazing to see him learning.

He also slept through the night last night for the first time.
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Current Mood: restlessrestless
31 October 2005 @ 08:02 pm
Wow… all the princesses that came for candy tonight! Kinda nauseating. Of-course, next year when we go trick-or-treating, my boy and I are going as punk-rockers. Not the kind you see on MTV, but the real ones – well, the ones I consider to be “real”. You know, with mudflaps, leg belts, political patches and too many studs. ;) Oh, I'm just joshing, I don't know what "real punks" really means when it comes to fashion. Punk for me has nothing to so with the way I look. Anyhoo... I’m going to break out my box of patches and make us some cool duds that can be worn all year round. It’s obvious that parents these days are just too drained and don’t have the time to really go all out and make costumes for their wee ones. Can’t say I blame em’. I admire parents who drag themselves out past their normal go-out time to see their kids have some fun. I could be cynical about Halloween for all the junk-food mania that goes on, but why bother? That’s just not my fight.

When we do the Halloween thing next year, we’re going to give all but a few pieces of Max’s candy away. The fun is going to be in the costume making and the walking around… well, that’s the plan anyway… we’ll see what happens! Maybe we’ll just have a big party at our house.

Oscar was at the window all night watching me pass out candy and eat just as much. It was cute to turn around and see the silhouette of a round pug face intensely staring out the window at me. If he weren’t so naughty and prone to get overly excited and jump on everyone, I’d love to have him out there with me.

Feeling a little sentimental tonight…

This was my due date last year, October 31st. I had my big pregnant belly one year ago today while Hal and I passed out candy in front of the house. The weather, I remember, was warmer and I was wearing my blue polka dotted dress with a stupid looking do-rag on my head.
Current Mood: nostalgicnostalgic
23 October 2005 @ 11:19 pm
i read this today and thought it was sweet:

At my Breast

His hair is a velvet phrase
A brown nap on his round head,
he drinks
and is drunk in my arms.

My nipple like the nib of the pen
writes a poem inside him.

His hand
rests in my palm; a tiny starfish
brought to the shore of my skin.

By Phyllis Capello
21 October 2005 @ 06:06 pm
"why is it so hard to just leave well enough alone and move on?"

"i don't know, it just is. and it can drive you crazy while you're at it."
Current Mood: disappointeddisappointed
19 October 2005 @ 10:24 pm
My zine has turned into a split zine with another mama named Rachael. Her side of the zine will be called, Placenta. She has a band and cd with the same name.

"....the rules of motherhood are being radically rewritten--with a snarl, cymbal crash and power E-chord that would make the lads in AC/DC stand and salute. (Placenta) is blowing like a hurricane" --USA Today


Check it out. I totally hate the music... but I love the ideas and spirit behind it all. This is going to be such a great adventure! She is so old school punk rock! :)
Current Mood: happyhappy